Day #2 – Crossing Thresholds

So I have decided I want to make at least one post a day. I have not a lot of time so I’m just gonna do this quick.

This is a poem which was written when me and my ex were having troubles. I love him still as I do a lot of people, but it was clearly not meant to be. Karmic partners who were meant to teach each other lessons, and help each other grow, then move on. He will always have a place in my heart… but at this time I was annoyed and frustrated, so I wrote a poem to try and get out some of these negative energies.

It’s nothing special but it’s deeply personal to me and by sharing it I’m expressing myself and having a voice. Hope any readers out there enjoy!

I want him to stay and go
I want him in our bubble when there’s no world outside
When we’re happy and laughing
And my anxious thoughts are lessoned

Not him as a spiteful little child
And me a spiteful little child
Bickering about who is more annoying
Tugging each others hair
And spitting out the dummy
Running home and complaining to mum
Because life isn’t always fair

I dont want him in this complicated messiness that I always get myself into
A hidden web of deceit
That I’m not willing to face

I want him to be happy
I want me to be happy
I dont want it to be the end
But if its something I have to do
I have to do it

I need to be alone
I’ve never been alone
Always dependant
I want to be free and unmessy and to do whatever I want
Maybe its selfish
Maybe I need selfish

I want to be me
I dont care what anyone else thinks of me
I need to be me
Not everyones image of me
I need to love myself
Keep your fucking pity.

Alright, off to my next endeavour now. Thanks for reading!